I'm Not There.

I'm Not There.

When you're singing a birthday song to your close friend during the celebration last week,
when your family welcomes a new puppy in to your home and still have not thought of its name,
when you laugh so hard at a joke that a person made that tears came out your eyes,
when you anxiously go online to check your results from the examination a month ago,
when you need a hug a after knowing your results were bad,
i was not there.

When all the couples in the room are your friends and the one without his partner is you,
when everyone else have a partner to kiss when the countdown on New Year's Eve ended except you,
when all your friends go out with their partners and you have one free afternoon to spend,
when your favourite love song was played where couples could dance ever so sweetly,
when the stars could not be brighter and the waves splashing into the clear white sands could not sound more peaceful,
when the view could not be more beautiful and the hill could not be more lonely,
i was not there.

when will i ever be there?

bie, i wanna be there with you.. and ey
(i can't write poems huh.., at least i tried. :))

The Weirdest Dream Ever... but i LIKE IT!

The Weirdest Dream Ever... but i LIKE IT!

i watched Die Hard 3 before i sleep that night, starring Bruce Willis. i know he's older now. but i love the way he carries himself. his face. it's really cooL!

N anyway, when i went to sleep that night, i dreamed that a guy (the villain) and i were having a gun fight with each other. Like really shooting here and there, running from here to there, trying to dodge bullets. and guess what??? BRUCE WILLIS WAS THERE TO AID ME!! (couldn't stop smiling from ear to ear) heeeehee..

there were many people around. it looks like it's set in a public building. it's a big building cause we seem to have lots of places to go. wat was funny is that i got shot in the head multiple times but i'm still standing. XD finally, after a great teamwork between Bruce and me, we finally shot the villain down. HEADSHOT!

after that, all the people that were running around calmed down.. took a while and walked towards Bruce Willis. To get his autograpH! you see, he wasn't there as the character he was playing but he was there as Bruce Willis, being my backup to help fight the forces of evil! MUAAHHAHA!!.. so happy. and anways, i myself went up to him to get his autograph as well.. (i'm a fan..) he saw me, he leaned towards me and was as though wanting to give me a kiss on the forehead, or a hug or just something like that, and then... .. ... ..

i woke up!!!! wuwuwuwuwuwu!!!

can't believe it.. one of the good dreams and i always have to wake up when the good part's about to come..

but i'm still very happY!!

hehe, neways, that's it for now. CIAO!

stressful time is OVER.... for now.

finally have time to relax..

since last friday. my schedule had been, wake up, work, eat, work, eat, work, talk to melvin a bit, work, sleep, wake up, work, eat, work, etc etc.. seriously speaking, if it weren't for michelle buying food for me, i would have starved to death without noticing!! .. so thanks michelle for saving my life!!! wuwu.. (praise!! ) wow, by the way, this is the result of not going for class the past week and a half for Design subject! never miss class agaiN! EVER! ..

i had to miss one of the only times we planned to go clubbiNG.. michelle was going with jasmine and her friends and i was supposed to gO!!! .. i deserve it. EELIN! NEVER SKIP CLASS AGAIN!! EVER!! ..

neways just watched silent hill with my brother, michelle, jin and fannie. disgustiNG! and yuck! and ewwwww! urhlghk.. for ppl who like disgustingness and "jumpi-ness" u can watch this. but hate the damn ending! let them live a happy life larrr! ...


now waiting for my melvin bie to come online. while waiting.. hmmm, lemme tell u bout my presentation. my tutors were disappointed in me. wuwu.. they say, the previous project was great. WHAT HAPPENED? then i go, "..." then they say, you should come for classes. you can't afford to miss anymore. YES I SHOULD COME FOR CLASSES!

now i'm having my one week holiday! yay!! but there's some hw and i need to work on my previous projects. we'll see how. :)

well, see ya next time! i wanna go shoppinG!

ps, i wanna thank melvin for being there to comfort me and motivate me and be there for me when i was on the brink of a break down. and also michelle foe being there to listen to me talking bout regretting misssing classes and kutuk me so bad that i really realize my mistake. THANKS BOTH OF YOU! muakssss!

Long Distance. I Hate It.

just found out i'm a super sensitive girl who gets uncomfortable and pissed over the tiniest little things. today i'm talking bout relationships. Actually, Long Distance Relationship.

what forms a long distance relationship?
mostly when the bf/gf decides to study overseas and either one have to stay behind.

what happens then?
bf and gf are separated, pain of missing one another are endures, lots of money are spent on phonecards and lots of time in front of the computer screen (although they do have a lot of fun just talking).

anything else?
yes, gf gets extremely jealous over small, pathetic things like when some girl gets close to bf. gf gets mad and bf patiently comforts and reassures gf that nth's going on and that they are JUST FRIENDS.

all guys say that when their gfs accuse them of liking someone else or anything similar to that. EVEN if it is not true. after talking with several guys, they told me that they would tell their gfs that they are just friends even if they do have feelings for the third party. (not talking bout you melvin, justwanna share my opinions) They ALL say that to avoid trouble and confrontation. or yeah maybe it's just exciting for them to have someone new to play with.

however, there are guys who genuinely don't have feelings for other girls. they really are friends. close friends.

i think there are reasons why some bfs/gfs get easily jealous in these situations. me, for one, DO NOT BELIEVE in a girl and a guy being really close friends who hangs out with each other often would not develope feelings for one another. ONE of them is bound to feel that. that is from my point of view. althout i do believe that they can be JUST FRIENDS. when a couple is separated by the ocean so far far far FAR away, they tend to get insecure because they are not there to take care of their bf/gf. they can't see their loved one's friends in real life, not knowing how they are, if they're friendly (or overfriendly) or not..

not only that, i KNOW people who actually go ahead for the particular guy or girl even when they know that that particular person has a bf/gf, especially if they're far far far FAR away! obviously, the bf/gf is in an unstable, weak condition.. not reassured with their other halves being so far away.. not knowing what their loved ones are actually thinking.. if the same thing is happening to them.. obviously, anyone would want the easy way out. but i'm telling those people who steal other ppl's bf/gfs away, they did it to their ex-es, what makes u think that they won't do it to u??

and some people, they might get desperate and develope urges to have thirst for physical affections. all they can do is control themselves and not be like animals. if u really love your partner, u would know not to do anything to jeopardize your relationships. although i just read from cosmopoliton that there is such a thing as a .. damn can't find the mag. it's something like an open relationship where both the gf and bf know about stuff tat they do with other ppl. intimate stuff. where they can set limits and stuff. so, they can have fun without being seen as cheating. but being such a jealous person that i am, i don't ever want to try that.

hmmm, i don't know what i'm trying to say. just want to express my views. ciao.
ps long distance is not easy.. i hate it..

"My Best Friend's Wedding"..

My Best Friend's Wedding

a very good morning to all.. just finished watching My Best Friend's Wedding by Julia Roberts, Dermont Mulroney, Cameron Diaz and Rupert Everett.

first of all, it just bums me out when i hear so many stories of women getting extremely jealous (which is normal) when the guy who had been in love with them since forever (as in they could have had him for her own) falls in love with someone else. and what's worse, they would do ANYTHING to get them back.

apparently, the only character that i like in the movie is the gay guy played by Rupert Everett. he's funny, great friend and gives REALLY REALLY GOOD ADVICE.

oh well, here's the storyline. ok. this commitment-shy woman falls in love with her best friend for many many years ( 20years or so) the day he told her that he decided to marry someone else. they had a long history, this two.. i can't remember their names. The best friend ( guy ) loved this woman for 9 years. she could have had him in that nine years time.

in my opinion all this girl wants is to win. she couldn' take it when the guy who have loved her for nine years starts to love someone else. she's not his attention anymore. and she wants his attention back. or she just wants him becasue someone else has him. urggghH! so selfish..

anyways, she was invited to the wedding and asked to be the maid of honour. and during that time, she did all that she could to destroy that wedding!! URGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!! .. soooo mean!!! arggghhhhh!!! yeah, oh well, u shoud watch it. cause well,.. it all came around.. hehe..
but ey, i just can't take girls like these.. some of them would just do anything to get them back, no matter how degrading.

yeah.. ok gonna go cook and eat lunch.. aih.. hehe.. good afternoon!! byebye!

Infill Site Project presentation

Infill Site Proj Presentation

sorry i haven't been updating my blog.. been busy with the assignments! my god.. they just wouldn't stop.. just finished one big assignment and now they're assigning us with another one.

presentations.. - everytime i think ofthem, i get butterflies in my tummy!!.. and when i finally get up there, i get ssssstuckkkkkkkkkkk!!! .. i'd go, er.. (hold breath and trying to think of somehting to say, but i can't..) er.. (then hold another breath, looking at my pin-up, the only word i could think of was STUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCK
STUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCK STUCK
STUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCK
STUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCK STUCK
STUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCK
STUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCKSTUCK STUCK

AARRRRRGGGHHHHHH>>>>>>>!!!

well, then the tutors will say, this is a good start.. jokingly..
then they'll say, why don't u start with the location of ur site..
and then, phew.. i get to get at least a few words out of my mouth..
EELIN!! PREPARE YOUR VERBAL PRESENTATION next time!

ok, thing is i would prepare what to say, but thing is, i don't know what to say!!
the thing about designing a house, they would always ask, what is your concept/idea??
what do u want people to think of when they see this house??
the only thing i could think of was, well, see, it is a house, the brief was to fit this building with 4 households in it, into an area of 4X11 meter square ( a very small space).. so the only concept/idea i have is trying to FIT THE BUILDING into that miserable tiny space!! what concept am i supposed to think of?? .. -_- .. i'm still trying to struggle with that..



hope i do better with this upcoming project..

oh yeah, finished this project and went home and finally get to do my chores!! now the kitchen is sparkling clean!! XD and my clothes are folded and placed in the closet! so happY!! :)