What Crossed My Head Today.

What Crossed My Head Today.

Sitting in front of my working desk and while trying to think of a simple yet bold form for this chain of houses on a hill, (ok dunno why this pic cannot upload)


the beyond song, "paradise" my late brother loved to play.., played on my computer. And it reminds me how calming this song is and why my brother loved it.. miss him..

then,

while sketching a number of different roofs (couldn't upload that too - grrr), i remembered my father's reaction when i called him yesterday as i felt my eyes twitching ( i may be superstitious but people say bad things happen when that happens - touch wood). and the reaction he gave me after i told him why i called, he gave a sigh of relief and said, "when u called me, i though somehting bad happened, made me worried.."

i realised, i seldom call my parents and talk to them lately and yeah, i should call them more often.

more thoughts popped up. how much i miss my home and my family. Nothing is more important than that. i miss sitting in the car with my mom, she would always talk to me bout her friends, work, my dad, and i would feel that at times, i'm the person she releases some of her stress to. and yeh, she would always overshoot a signboard or take the wrong turn. and there's always the occasional interruptions from her "always-ringing" phone. haha.. annoying as it is, i miss that..

Now, back here in aus, almost every evening when it is time to choose where to eat and where to eat. i finally understood how my mom felt when she used to ask me everyday what i wanted to eat for dinner. and i guess i understand how annoyed or dissappointed she felt when i replied her time after time, "i dunno, u decide la." BUT SOMETIMES I GOT SAY WHAT I WANT LA..



I MISS MY MOM!!
I MISS MY DAD!!
and i miss the feeling of food and snacks being brought up to u or prepared for u when u're sitting in front of the tv or computer. at 7pm. on the dot. i wantttt.. -_-

and I MISS CHEN SERN!! can't wait to come back!! :)




and why does my eye keep twitchING?!?!?!??! arrrgh..

A Liveless Day for Me..

A LiveLess Day For Me.

Today is a dull day for me. Besides the fact that i spent the whole night doing my history essay due this afternoon. (It's not all that good.)

i feel as though my life has been drained out of me.

It's one of those days when i felt like i am not very healthy and the strain at the back of my neck just won't go away. i handed in my essay, went back home.. i did have a nap. i lied down there and tried to sleep.. i couldn't. i kept waking up every 20 minutes, but yet i feel tired.

tried to eat.. ate a bit. what's wrong with me?

and why does my eye keep twitchiNG?!?!?!

Good and Bad Relationships.

you have a bf/girlfriend and yet u snap at your friend of the opposite sex when he/she tells you about this person he/she likes. or every other person.

you have a bf/girlfriend but yet u are ashamed of him/her.

you have a bf/girlfriend but he/she cheats on you.

your bf/ gf loves you but you couldn't care more bout his/her feelings.

you have a bf/girlfriend but he/she doesn't love or appreciate you.

you have a bf/girlfriend but you lie to him/her.

i hate relationships when i see or hear bout these things.
i wouldn't know if anyone else is doing this to me. am i to blame for thinking this if i know stuff like this happens?

and i hate this the most,
you love your bf and he loves you back, but u're so far apart. (maybe that's why we still love each other so much)


the irony...

however,

i love relationships when i see or hear bout these thing..

your bf plans and prepares the best date ever. flowers, classy restaurants, gentlemen-ness..

your bf/gf makes sure that everything goes well and goes through all measures just so that you would have the perfect birthday, and most importantly, to see you smile and happy.

your bf/gf surprises you with sweet gestures, small but sweet and memorable none the less.

your bf/gf practices cooking your favourite meal till it's perfect.

and the obvious,

your bf/gf helps, motivates, trusts, cares when it meant the most and

appreciates each other.

ok maybe it's those negative things on top there that makes the bottom things there more memorable and valuable.

see ya next time!

hearing problems and moviess.

"..that's stupid, it'll be chaos.."
"back off?"
"chaos."
"pay off?"
"CHAOS!!"
"Ouh! CHAOS!.."

that's how our conversation is almost everyday.. hehe, tiring isn't it.. it always ends with loris saying, " i don't wanna talk to you. " or, "do you clean your ears?"

yes, i admit. i have a small hearing problem. happens with everyone i speak with.

Melvin actually said, " you know, it's kinda annoying that i have to repeat everything i say to you.. "

well, the irony with melvin and i is that, he has a low, soft deep voice. and i am just not alert enough to catch what he says. but what can he do.. he's tied to me, aren't u, melvin? hehe..

Lutfi, my classmate here in melbourne talks even softer than melvin. and one time, asked me to go to 7-11 as we were passing one. and i asked, "what for?"

"to get ear buds." !@#$%^&!!!!!

anyways, let's talk bout yesterday,

after spending the whole day yesterday at the computer lab doing work, i went to watch 2 movies later at night. One was Step Up and another was Little Miss Sunshine.

If you've watched Take The Lead, this movie is 10 times better. (in my opinion) Although the lead actress in Step Up is the same girl in Take The Lead (one of the students), she's much better in dancing in Step Up. Just watch it. More dancing, more skills. and the combination is great. Ballet and hiphop. Love, music, dancing, sexy bodies.

Then Little Miss Sunshine. i like wat they're trying to show here. A broken up family trying to make it happen. But in the end, it's not so broken up after all. Great family value. very interesting and funny. My favourite character in there was Duwane. The teenage son in the family who swore to a vow of silence till he achieves his goal as a pilot. he's really funny. dopey funny.

went back home, slept.. Had english breakfast this morning. Yum. Pancakes, eggs, and bacon. and hot chocolate. first time since so long ago since we had breakfast.. normally i just miss it. -_-

HOW COME I CAN'T UPLOAD ANY MORE PICSSSS...??????

well, this was last weekend. thought i posted it up but oh well.. hmm today's friday. night. again. went shopping today. don't feel like talking.. can't post pics up.. grrr.. next time then!

byeeeee..

Sad Friday Night. :(

Sad Friday Night. :(

am in the computer lab with joel now. he's a classmate. funny guy. Malaccan Malaysian (if there's such a term. -_-). met him earlier this year. it is currently 1.37am on a friday night. and i'm in a computer lab!! doing my f-reeaking assignment!! SOO arrrrgh.. but it's ok, it's ok.. when u've done this, u can forget bout this and move on to OTHER assignments. hmm.. life as an architect student. what else is new huh..

thank god joel is here with me. there's only 2 of us here in the lab and hahaha, finally! found someone to walk me home! was getting kinda worried. :) thanks joEL!

waiting for this Rhino programme to render.. god.. takes so long..

oh well, let me tell u bout my day. went to do history research with this half-jap, half-hongkong guy who can speak both jap and cantonese, YOSHI. went to the exhibition building, the melbourne museum (a totally different building from what you would expect, seriously - i'll post a pic when i get my hands on those photos). had lunch, then discussed bout work.. right after that, went straight to the lab to do work.. 2 hourslater, went to have dinner at Wagamama! this new restaurant which just opened at the bottom of our apartment. it's a japanese restaurant. and interesting thing is, when we enter it, it seemed like 90% of the room is filled with people wearing black! black suits, mostly. it's kinda nice to see. they look like people wh0 just got off work. and the place looks good, a little classier than the usual restaurants u see in Melbourne. but food was ok only larr.. expensive lar.. man.. after that went back to the computer lab to finish off my work..

just realised i should brring my camera out more often. take more pics. :)
and just realised that what i talked about up there is work, eat, work, eat, work.. man!
WHEN WILL WORK BE OVER!!! :*(

see ya next time!

Rhino still rendering!! DAMMIT!!