not improving, but not slacking either! :)

i'm KIND of maintaining my working habits.. kinda.. well at least better than way before when i was a lazy pig. hmm.. just had a full niceeee 3 hours sleep. FINALLY! the whole night yesterday and the days before i kept wakin up in between which is really freaking me out. but now, i'm quite happy i can sleep peacefully again. but hey, it's 10pm. i wonder how i'll sleep later. haha.

hmmm, well this new assignment we have, which is to design another gallery but this thime, it is for the students of RMIT to display their works. we have to include a bar, kitchen and toilet facilities and obviously a space for exhibition. hehe. when i'm done with this, if there is a model or nice drawings i might upload it on friendster. so be sure to check it out there! hehe..

i had a crappy day yesterday.. the whole day was kinda wasted. i have a class in the morning from 9am to 12pm. for the first time in a few weeks, i finished my work, i went to class, ON TIME, and guess what. CANCELLED. Jin and lutfi were shocked that i came. haha. well, they kinda never see me there. friday's class.. well anyways, i couldn't go home cause i gave the ONE AND ONLY GODDAMN KEY we have for our god-forsaken apartment to michelle cause i WAS SUPPOSED to attend a talk on giving verbal presentations which goes from 12.30 to 2pm. mich was coming back around one. so, u get the picture. so basically i walked around the city and just looked around the shops (books and materials) aimlessly.. for 3 and a half hours! after lunch wth friends, i went to attend the talk. and the goddamn talk was also cancelled!! omg. thank god there were some classmates there so we went to the library together to discuss some issues with our assignments. talk talk talk, then became chat chat chat.. then mich said she was home. FINALLY! and so i went home. imagine if i could have gone home earlier, i have all my drawings which needed to be printed out, i could have done that. i have all my briefs and notes for the new assingment at home, i could have worked on that. i was very tired and sleepy cause i slept 5 hours the night before, i could have slept.. no no no, i had to haul myself around the city for 3 hours.. by the time i got home, i was so tired that i was having half a headache and went to sleep and miss my chance to go shopping with mich and jas.. wuwu.. well, i guess there's a next time. and that time, when i was trying to sleep, i kept waking up 1/2 hour later, with a big headache.. man.. then finally gave up and woke up, had dinner, watched tv, did some work and went to sleep.. this morning, a little sick, had medicine, ate, work work work, print, but materials, back, tv a lil, sleep and here i am. gonna eat now.. so ciao! that's a very long story for a short point, but oh well, just felt like saying. hehe. oh and i love melvin and i miss him and i hope we will last cause i very scared that sth will happen this year and i'd be very hurt.(predicted by the fortune teller) hope it doesn't happen. hehe. byebye!

improved improved!! :)

wow, for the past week, i've been doing work like there's no tomorrow. no procrastination, no waiting for time to pass, and no lazing on the sofa or the computer table facing screens that only cause depression. uh-uh. instead it's just work work work. today i went to class ON TIME feeling proud for once. tutor complimented me on the neatness and effort. haven't had this feeling for a long long time. finally, i've bounced back. tonight, i shall continue doing work till all the work that have been stacked up from before till they're finished.

i have to admit this bounce back wouldn't have happened if my tutor didn't give me a wake up call. after all the slacking, she told me individually that she was worried bout me and that if i continue to be like that, i WILL fail my semester. that shocked me.. i went like, OMG. OMG. OMG. EELIN, what have u become?!?!

neways, i'm gonna go and do work now. really glad i can express myself here. CIAO! :)

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hairstyles really do make a difference in my life. i've started to feel better and better about myself each passing day. i noticed i have better self-esteem and more confidence about myself, socially.

however, i've noticed a habit of procrastinating becoming a more and more major problem and i can see the effects of it kicking in. not good for my education and career. i could have my visa cancelled and waste all the money my dad spent for my education, here in australia. but how to change? i know i have to but i don't want to. i know i want to deep down but i haven't. and i know if i don't do anything about this, i could cause serious problems with my parents, Melvin and my friends ( well at least those who care). when i really get down to it, i should be the one to be ANGRY with myself. i should be the one to MOTIVATE myself cause this is MY LIFE. if i don't do anything about it, who wiLL? if i don't change these things, who wiLL? my mother? she's got enough on her plate already. i know she would if she knew i have this problem. my brother? he cares but he has his own problems as well. yeah so it's me. it has to be me. hmmm, this helped. thanks blogger! heehee.. u're like my therapist.