We Need Sisters.

i received this email and i think it is really meaningful. i don't know who the real author was so i didn't put any name down here.


To all;
A young wife sat on a sofa on a hot humid day, drinking iced tea and visiting with her Mother. As they talked about life, about marriage, about the responsibilities of life and the obligations of adulthood, the mother clinked the ice cubes in her glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober glance upon her daughter.

"Don't forget your Sisters," she advised,

swirling the tea leaves to the bottom of her glass. "They'll be more important as you get older. No matter how much you love your husband, no matter how much you love the children you may have, you are still going to need Sisters. Remember to go places with them now and then; do things with them. "Remember that 'Sisters' means ALL the women... your girlfriends, your daughters, and all your other women relatives too. You'll need other women. Women always do."

'What a funny piece of advice!' the young woman thought. Haven't I just gotten married? Haven't I just joined the couple-world? I'm now a married woman, for goodness sake! A grownup! Surely my husband and the family we may start will be all I need to make my life worthwhile!' But she listened to her Mother. She kept contact with her Sisters and made more women friends each year. As the years tumbled by, one after another, she gradually came to understand that her Mom really knew what she was talking about. As time and nature work their changes and their mysteries upon a woman, Sisters are the mainstays of her life. After more than 50 years of living in this world, here is what I've learned:

This says it all :

Time passes.

Life happens.

Distance separates.

Children grow up.

Jobs come and go.

Love waxes and wanes.

Men don't do what they 're supposed to do.

Hearts break.

Parents die.

Colleagues forget favors.

Careers end.

but.........

Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you. A girl friend is never farther away than needing her can reach. When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you have to walk it by yourself, the women in your life will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end. Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you...Or come in and carry you out. Girlfriends, daughters, granddaughters, daughters-in-law, sisters, sisters-in-law, Mothers, Grandmothers, aunties, nieces, cousins, and extended family, all bless our life!

The world wouldn't be the same without women, and neither would I. When we began this adventure called womanhood, we had no idea of the incredible joys or sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how much we would need each other. Every day, we need each other still. Pass this on to all the women who help make your life meaningful. I just did.

ps : my mother forwarded this to me. So, it must be right.

i never had any sisters in my life. so, all the girls out there are really sisters to me. love you all!

Me Working at Draften.

Just spent the whole day working today at Draften Design Management as a receptionist for a few weeks. it is tiring. Woke up at 7.30am and still was late for work. Typical. 3 jams to go true.

My Counter.

Answering calls, transfering calls, passing/receiving messages, receiving/ sorting mails, answers, greets, attends to people who come into the office... it's easy to do them one at a time but when you are trying to transfer a call to the other line, other calls start coming in (two phones at the counter), some uncle standing at the counter asks for this certain employee while someone else's at the door buzzing u to let them in (door's locked unless u press this button), all starts coming down when u're trying to send the daily report in an SMS to the big managers and boss.. either that, or nothing happens at all and you're bored as hell, maybe just an occasional phone call.

actually, i'm not complaining as much. It was much harder when i first started last Wednesday. The current Receptionist was coincidently on leave that day and i was pretty much on my own. After working half a week, i had Convinced Melvin to work with me and he started off as an M&E Trainee today. he complained it was wicked Boring. Didn't do much, the person incharge of him asked him to read some engineering stuff.. or whatever that it called (pardon my term) and that was all he did all day. Poor baby..

Guai Zhai..

We finished work at 5.40pm and went to have dinner before going home. Feeling so bloody tired. He did too. I don't know it was out of lack of sleep, or yawning out of boredom. I think the latter. hehe.

Never let go..

~~

Last Friday night, it felt as though i was really one of those working people who really have to ease off the tension and stress and go for a night out. i did it with my girlfriends at Hartamas Sq right after work. Didn't change or anything. It was really just my second time being there. The first was the first time i saw Melvin AFTER we got together. Haha, i can still remember him coming towards me with all my friends sitting around a table after our Malam Anugerah event in 2005. It was a dark, thin shadow figure and he was wearing a cap. He patted on my head, i held my breath and gave out that awkward look i always do (trying to change that!! be natural!!!) and everyone went, "awwwww...." hehe.. With him was Joshua and Jon, i think..

Me and Suyen on the way to Mich's house.

All four of Us.

Anyways, we shisha-ed and talked and laughed and ate and drank!! Meiwen was trying to blow smoke out her ears and i was trying to blow out smoke rings. it was really funny. We laughed at almost anything. Su Yen laughed only at really funny stuff and mich, hmmm, got a bit. :) i actually got high from Shisha. On the way to the toilet i couldn't balance much and meiwen was holding my hand. i love her smoooth smoooth handss.. as u can see from the pics, i was wearing this shirt and i was wondering if people thought we were lessssss.. haha.

MeiWen looks so Cute when she tried to do that!! XD

Me and MeiWen.

Michelle. Smokey-smokey??

Candid.

melvin joined in halfway cause he was fetching me back. thanks biee! Anyways, in the middle of everything, i took out a flask of warm water out to drink. Everyone was looking at me, like.. "what the..????" i went -_-"........ "Mama said warm water's good for health........." Everyone went berserk... but it is true. Warm water is really better for your body than cold water. Better for your uterus and ovaries and women, especially. So Don't Laugh.

Note MeiWen's Espression..

Melvin and his shisha-obsessed face.

Me Scaring him off, agaiN?

Lost???

I loved that, gals, let's do it agaiN!! with all the girls this time kay?? muaksss!

That's all for now! See ya!

First Few Weeks of 2007.

sorry guys, Haven't updated in a while. let's see, what's been happening since new years..?

1) Sang karaoke for courtesy in front of my mom, dad and their friends. My heart went like beating so hard and some of my voice got stuck at my throat. After a while, I actually enjoyed it. Not only do you get addicted to it, you also get lots of compliments pouring out though deep down, we know they're just saying that to give face. But it won't hurt to just believe them!! ;)

2) Went to June's Birthday Party. Saw Michelle there. Haven't seen her for a while. Really caught up. Finally wore that top she really liked from Australia. And damn, they really like Poker. Thanks for having me there, June!

there she is, camwhoring with my camera... tsktsk.. (cept that first one there.) ;)

michelle and me.. she's my loverrrrRRR..

the "poker table".

bie and i.

birthday girl - June.

3) Went Shopping with bie!! Spent a whole lot lot lot of money. hehe. Loved it. Though still not enough to fill up that void of wanting more. more. more. shopping anyone??

4) Watched "Night In The Museum". A really good and funny show. Please watch it. Please!!

5) Caught up with Beeli in her house. Talked about love, life, religion, .. not enough time to talk though.. went back early. Missed ya beeli!

Beeli and i.

6) Went to Akon's Concert in Ruums in KL. Thanks to Melvin whose Friend June who got free tickets from another friend. Thank you so so much! It was so packed there wasn't enough room to move about! There was Jon, June, melvin and i. Melvin and i just wanted to go to the entrance to meet his sis, and seriously, we couldn't move! and one young man was getting grumpy cause everyone kept pushing and he was saying loudly, "there's no space to move!" and that's even before it started. Yeah, then the songs played, Benny D came out, then Akon. The performance was not bad, really. it was great. there was this one part where they had a few girls and guys up to dance. then when the guys danced really badly, Akon said he and his friend Benny are gonna show us how it's done. Man, they grabbed hold of two girls. Once each, and started carrying them and humping them like how people would have sex standing up. we were shocked. some were laughing. one of the girl looked "violated" and she didn't seem fine. Yeah that seemed like the highlight of the evening. great lightings, great sound system.. Didn't bring my camera in. Should have though. went to a mamak place to drink and shisha before we went back. i was a lil dizzy for a while. mom sure was mad...

(please excuse all the camwhoring.. -_-" )

but all in all, i had a wonderful night, so

THANK YOU JUNEEE!!

5) The next day, i was caught by a policeman for running the red light. i was scared.. the guy was pointing at me and signalling me to pull over.. and i had my IC and driving license in my other bag for yesterday's event. i forgot all about it! my heart was beating really fast. Luckily my mom was beside me. She knew exactly what to do. I guess all of u do. i wind down my window, and he asked for my licence. we did what we did and we're free to go. Sometimes i am dissapointed with my country. but oh well, guess i'm not in a position to complain since i'm doing the exact same thing. yeah?

Me in my Room.

6) So now, i'm here. Blogging. Checking out my photos. i love make up. don't u? :)

By right, i should go to the office tomorrow. see how it goes. Let's hope i do. :) and this last picture cracks me up. i don't like melvin. ;p

why won't u kiss me?!?!?!

see ya!!

Happy New Year 2007!

before i start, let me just say that this is a really long post. and all the photos posted here were taken on New Year's Eve. Sorry i didn't take much with the rest of you, i forgot my goddamn memory cards!! so, internal memory only allow like 10,15. argh.

(Listening to "Speed Of Sound" by Coldplay.)

To everyone i know, i love, i miss and the ones i just met,

happy new year 2007!

Wish u all the best in everything u do.

to close up my year 2006,

i'd like to say, this year, not the best i ever had. I went through a lot and i learnt that living in a strange place could feel really bitter. surprised that i didn't feel that last year when i first came to Melbourne, Australia.

dinner at Paddington House of Pancake at the Curve.

i have to say, there's a great deal in me which i thought have matured. from last year, i thought i have grown up. but deep down, now i realised, how selfish i have been and how i have not grown. inside, i'm still one who wants to be pampered, cares only about myself, cares only about wanting what i want and not lifting a finger for others who care most for me, ones who matter to me the moment i was born and definitely till the moment i draw my last breath. especially, back here, in Malaysia, my home. back down under, i would always tell myself, "when i get back, i'd make up for lost time with my mother, my father, my brother, especially my mother, not forgetting bie as well." but when i get back, i care more about going out with friends and my bie.

cheese sausage with pancake stacks and hashbrown.

it truly hit me when i was telling my mother that i was going out yesterday in the evening. she was busy preparing for the party my dad hosted in the house for the big New Year's Eve occasion. she looked so.. .. (i don't know how to describe it, disappointed? sad? speechless? lost?) . i felt humiliated and disgusted with myself that i have once again disappointed her as her daughter. Bie was already waiting outside my house. thank god her sisters were all there to help her out.

Grilled lamb with pancakes and mash potatoes.

it's not that i have not spent time at all with her and it's not that i go out all the time. it's just that when i'm at home, i'd always sleep till late afternoon that my mom has already done all her chores of the day. and the rest of the day is reserved for cooking for the workers and guests who have come to work/visit the new house. Yes, i have moved to a land far far away from where i used to stay. The Mines. lots of work that's needed to be done. i would help her in the evening. just to cook. and only for a while. being so undecisive. i'd always blame melvin for bringing me out when it should be myself to blame. i'm so sorry bie for what happened yesterday. you have been really understanding and if u'd have your way, u'd want to see me everyday. but u were careful enough to not take up all my time and thought for me and my family and friends. u were considerate and because of me, u had to suffer for it. i'm sorry.

blurred picture of Melvin's friends (ChuiMun, PohYee and Jon.)

"who call me to not help out as much as i can when i have the chance but regret the time and moments i didn't when i'm out?? How am i to enjoy life like that?" that's one new year's resolution i'm making.

Never do something that's doubtful to you.
Never do something halfway.
Take the chance and do the right thing at the right time.
When you are doing something, make sure u enjoy it/do it to the fullest.

acting cool.

to sum up my year:
The first half of the year was great, the first semester, i had loads of encouragement and love from my tutors, my family, my friends. i met lots of new friends and i had fun. the second semester though, i had to endure the unfamiliarity of having to be in a class full of people not of my nation and race. i was put in a class where i was lost, confused, and a recluse.

however, people i stay close with gave me all the encouragements i needed. my roomies, loris and michelle. There's also one far far away, my bie. plus a few friends i would call up occasionally for help and some release of stress. surely they'd hear me complain about absolutely anything in the world. then one pointed out saying, it's like "everything is everyone else's fault." that hit me and i learnt my big mistake and will take life differently. Life is never good enough if u keep complaining. if you don't do something about it, who would? it's your life. i want to be happy. i want to live life to the fullest, with no regrets. i should make the most of my time. i should enjoy the time i have, at the place i'm at. No matter who i'm spending it with.

Results these year were not as great as before. but it's still beats failing. hehe. guess it could be great if it weren't for the prolonged procrastination habits which are still a big part of me. second resolution,

No Procrastination. Just DO IT.

Finally, a nice Big Smile.

I want to thank all my friends and family and loved ones who have been so kind to me. To SuYen, MeiWen, Tammy and BeeLi(who i have only met once since i came back) Thank you so much for being there for me when i have problems or even when just spending time together. i really feel very close to you, enjoy everymoment with you and there's no same feeling i would have with anyone else of course, except with my bie, my family and the other two roomies back home. We'd always have that "girl bond", ey?

Mei Wen and i.

To my roomies in australia,

Loris,
This i couldn't have owed u my gratitude enough. thank you so much for all your wisdom and opnions and advice whenever i ask for them. Yes, we do argue about things but after that, u'd always confront/approach me and talk it through. That is something i would always try to avoid, but then we both do grow even more from that. and yes, u seem more like my mother than my friend. sometimes, u do make me think twice about things i would do because i knew u would ask questions about why i did that. although i find them taxing, i know that u asked because u care. and because of that, it has made me more appreciative for you and not forgetting being more aware of my surroundings than i ever would have if i hadn't lived with u. u and ur big heart where u'll always offer me help WHENEVER u see me busy and u were free. u would sacrifice ur tv time for me. thank you so mucH!! remember when i told u that i admired u because of the way u think and the way u stand up for your opinions? i learnt from you that everyone has different opinions, though our opinions clash, you thought me to stand up for what i believe in. Thank u very much! I Love You, Loris. Thanks for helping me grow into the person i am today. i know i'd always have ur back the way u'll have mine. Looking forward to living together again next year. More Ups and Downs. haha.

(writing so much.. now listening to "Loving you is easy caue you're beautiful" by minnie riperton.)

Charlie and i.

Michelle,
I know that all these years of friendship between us have been full of twists and turns. we end up in fights. we end up in arguements. sometimes we don't talk. sometimes we don't mix very well. we have different personality that don't click. sometimes there's misunderstandings from the smallest things. u curse to express where as i get annoyed by that. but one thing i know for sure, u'll always have an impact on me. u might think that things u say don't matter to me. they do (if not, ask melvin). u were very encouraging to me in australia and even when i'm back in Malaysia with the erm.. problem with Melvin, with family. you'll know what i mean. i have fun back in Australia with u and loris. wrestling. slapping. hitting. playing. pushing. carrying. when i think bout me crying when i lose or kena bully, i feel so stupid now. haha. but please, don't be too harsh on me.. softer.. cause i can't take it. ;) Lame as it might be, the miss incredible hulk. i appreciate it when u call me to talk about problems. i know i suck in giving advice or consolement, but as long as i'm there trying, right? and i have not properly apologised to u about the form 4 incident where i turned my back on you. i'm sorry for that. i am really ashamed of myself. I hope i'll be able to make up for it. After that long night of confrontations, i know why u do the things u do and why u are the way u are. I'll never judge you again. I Love You, Mich. The thing bout the outing, i hope u understand. u're moving next year, friends forever kay?? muaks.

Jia Hau and i.

To My Bie,
What can i say about this year to you? i think i can say that you know about almost everything in my life. and you are definitely there for me whenever i need and i want you. hehe. i know i'm an insecure, and sensitive and annoyingly possessive girlfriend, but i know you like me being like that, so, haha, we're the perfect pair!! we have begun fighting the way normal couple fights. sorry for being jakun but that's so coool! haha.. up till now, i'm still wondering who's the sweeter one in this relationship. hmmm, let's see, the one who flew back from australia to see the other half, or the one who bake cookies again and again for the other half, or the one who do errands for the other half's mother again and again, or the one who waits so long for the other half when going out all the time or the one who have to cut his social meetings short so that he could fetch his other half home early cause she has a curfew, or the one who would never drive above 100km/hr because the other half doesn't like it, or.. ok, the sweeter one's you. ;) honestly, when i start thinking about u and me, i can't believe that you can take me complaining just about anything all the time! i know i think a lot. and i talk about those really small things with you. every little single detail. i'll talk about anything with you. that's why sometimes i end up hurting you cause there's no filter. i talk about absolutely anything. one thing about this long distance relationship lasting so long, i think it's because we talk a lot. and i love talking to you. and i know u love talking to me. damn, i love u. i gotta thank technology for letting us do that. i love your patience and tolerance and dedication. i know i piss you off a lot. (really, i do) and u could take all that shit. i really really love you!! thanks, mich, for introducing him to me! i'll never forget the day we met!! muaks bie! hey, we gotta cook together more often!

Bie and i.

Last but not least, My Family.

My mother, erge, my father and younger brother.
when there is no one else to lean on, your family will ALWAYS have your back, true? i think so.

My mother, hearing her voice on the other end of the line is always something i look forward to hear. though hearing my dad's just makes me feel pressured cause it's always about exams, presentations, studies and never forgetting, the new house. haha. My mom gives me much needed encouragement and i hope i give her the amounts she needs.
i love u, mommy!
hugging u at night and telling u that, when u give it back, it's worth more than anything in the world.

Erge. Erge, hehe, the brother i see every weekend now that we stay not as near as before and enjoy our very own mini-"family" movie session. haha. He's there to listen to my problems, to accompany me go places, he thinks bout me when he goes to Phillip Island, bought me a penguin!! ehehe.. and help me do my work, with a lot of begging and asking and begging. haha, the "beautiful" brother i have. honest with me, thinks i'm an egoistic maniac. but hey, i love u just the same ok? love me too. :P thanks for being there for me, too! when i had no one to turn to in Australia. At least i have u there. thank you. happy new year!

Chen Sern, my youngest brother. i like spending time with u when u're alone. really. cause u tend to turn less friendly when someone else is there. love you, boy!

Dad. My inspirational figure. thank you for making the big big house work! i love u dad! and i know u care for me, will try to worry u less, kay? To both my parents, sorry if i disappoint you. here's another resolution,

Be a Good, Useful, Loving Daughter.

(Now playing Melvin's fav song, "all my life" by k-ci and jo-jo)

Weng Keong, Goh, Benjy, Weng Kin, Charlie, Eve, Jin, Fannie, Arlene, and Lutfi and all the new people i've met and come to know better this year, happy new year! and hope to know you guys even better in years to come!! Thanks for being my friends and making my life even more enjoyable, interesting and fun!

Me, Ex Bestarians and Friends.

Wow i think this is the longest post yet. another one of my new year's resolution :

To pick up on Reading.

so recommendations anyone? i've got "My Sister's Keeper" by Jodi Picoult at the moment. Recommended by Melvin cause his petsis kept on talking bout it. hehe, let's see what it's about. So, any recommendation by anyone is welcomed!

Happy new year once agaiN!

(ending with "Walking After You" by Foo Fighters..)

i cannot be without you,

matter of fact..

i'm on your back..

if you walk out on me..

i'm walking after you..